His goodness and mercy save me

Thank you, Lord, that my salvation and victory are not on my shoulders. Many times, this truth may seem hidden, a bit distant. I think myself resourceful, intelligent, capable, resilient, discerning, and wise – all good things, gifts from You. At times, I’m even worldly – knowing the things of this world and the adventures it has to offer. It’s so hard to be in this world and not of the world. The memories and experiences I’ve carried since my birth in this world till now are so tangible, so real.

As You well know, there are times I have wished You were just as tangible. I have wanted to humanise You so I could experience You at my anthropological level. To throw my arms around you, to sit across from You and to audibly hear your voice like I used to do with my earthly father are things I’ve cried out to You about. Yet, I recognise that in that desire lies the need to shape you and resize into something my mind could fathom and experience in a way that I know and understand.

If I were to get my wish, You would cease to be the God that you are. You once said to people who were perhaps feeling like I have felt, “But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor — Counsellor, Strengthener, Standby) will not come to you; but if I go, I will send Him (the Holy Spirit) to you [to be in close fellowship with you],” John 16:7 AMP. You could see the bigger picture and knew the greater plan.

In light of this, I am very grateful that I do not have to save myself. I cannot lead myself to victory with my limited vision and wisdom. There are many things I do not know and understand, about You, about the world, about people and even about myself. However, none of these things are hidden from You. Darkness is as light to You; the farthest corner of the Earth and deepest depths cannot escape from You. You search and know the depths of my heart and show me compassion.

Out of love, you took my place in the seat of the accused, gave up Your life and saved me from sin, from death and ultimately, from separation from You. You, Sovereign Lord, are my strength! You make me as surefooted as a deer, able to tread upon the heights (Habakkuk 3:19 NLT. Thank you, Beloved Saviour, that my freedom today is not based on my actions. My victory comes only from You and what you have done.

Love,