What It Feels Like to Be Overwhelmed by God’s Love

A beautiful yet unexpected thing happened to me recently. 

I was sitting in class at Bible college, listening to the final teaching for the day. While it was a great class, it wasn’t out of the ordinary as far as classes at the college go. They’re consistently rich and engaging.

Because I always walk away blessed after each teaching, I’m usually expectant when I listen to them. Yet, I didn’t anticipate what happened next

As I was taking notes, I felt God gently drawing my attention. He prompted me to stop writing and simply pay attention. His “drawing my attention” feels like everything around me fading into the background, becoming ‘distant’ and less important as my awareness shifts.

Everything within becomes still and quiet – my thoughts, my emotions – as my focus automatically rests on something very specific. And so, that happened as I stopped writing. I thought the next thing(s) the speaker would say would jump out at me and perhaps become more meaningful and personal to me. 

It’s hard to explain, but I’ll do my best. It felt like a warmth welling up within me and radiating outwards to my whole body, and a cool sensation resting on me externally – especially around my arms and skin. Yet it was so much more than just a sensation or feeling. It felt like pure love filling me up.

I could feel my heavenly Dad’s presence so strongly that tears filled my eyes, and I remember saying to Him, “I’m coming undone.” Yet, it wasn’t like I was unravelling – it felt like I was opening up. As I leaned into the moment and let it wash over me, God’s love and presence and joy soaked my soul. It felt like such an affirmation. Like being chosen. Like being seen.

Afterwards, I went back to my notes to look at what was being said when this happened. Had Jesus been drawing me to a specific message in the teaching? But I sensed God saying that it wasn’t about the lesson specifically. He was making His manifest presence known and blessing my heart simply because He wanted to. He just wanted to affirm me and pour out His love on me.

It was a beautiful expression of unfailing love for love’s sake alone.

The Story of a Man on a Hill

I was walking home, enjoying some much-needed quality time with my heavenly Dad. We’d walked to the shops together because I needed a few things, and I decided to turn the errand into intentional connection time. Now, I was on my way back. 

On the way there, we talked about nothing in particular, and yet, we talked about everything. About half-way, I passed a couple of ladies selling metal wares by the road side, a familiar and permanent fixture on that stretch. God prompted me to pray for them – their protection, their business, their salvation.

On the journey back, I noticed their kids had joined them. God prompted me to pray again, including their children. That simple act of obedience would later turn into a ministry moment – but that’s a story for another time.

As I was nearing home, I saw a striking image. It was one of those moments you wish you had a top-of-the-range camera on hand and the skill to match. But I had intentionally left my phone at home and couldn’t capture the moment. So instead, I took a mental picture. Sometimes this is better because you can really immerse yourself in the moment when you’re not looking at it through a lens (I’m certain there’s a deeper life lesson in that as well).

It was twilight, with the sun dipping just below the horizon. The road I was walking on ascended to the crest of a small hill before disappearing beyond view. At the top of the hill, a young man of athletic build appeared on the right side of the road, and began descending. Behind him was a breathtaking sunset with layers of red, orange and amber hues blending into one another, rising to meet a slowly darkening sky. 

As he walked down, he playfully tossed something in the air and lifted his right arm to catch it. It looked like a victory pose, a fist raised in joyful triumph. Framing him, on either side was nature – trees, flowers, shrubs, grass –  juxtaposed against the concrete urban setting. Rising up, tall and proud, on his left, was a tall metal tower. All of it was silhouetted by the fading light. 

I spontaneously started thanking my Dad. It was so beautiful, so intentional. It felt like it was painted just for me, for my pleasure. I couldn’t see anyone else in sight, just me and this man on a hill. Just as I was delighting in the sight, a car appeared at the top of the hill. Its bright headlights penetrated the deepening dusk, accentuating the scene, adding another layer of contrast and depth to the beautiful synergy of man, man-made structures and nature.

My heart was full as I continued to appreciate what I had seen. I prayed, “You did that, Dad! I see it. Thank you so much. It is blessing me.” I named my picture “Man On A Hill”. That was not the end of it. When God blesses, He blesses abundantly, a good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over (Luke 6:38). 

As I was nearing home, I saw another view. The same sunset but from a new angle. The same amber, orange and red hues were rising to an oddly bright sky this time, almost as though daylight was not quite ready to depart just yet. I remember thinking, “It’s as if the sun is saying even in darkness, when you cannot see me, I’ll always be bright, bringing light, just like the Son.” 

I thanked God for that image and that amazing message as well. To me, He had painted two beautiful pictures simple for my enjoyment. Just because… What a delight they were!